my insides ache. i think i know what i need to do but it's a decision that would require a lot of growing pains and separation that i'm not sure i am ready to deal with.
maybe it's the best thing for us both, though.
i just don't know.
aren't you supposed to "know"? at the pit of your gut that this is right person for you?
i've felt it before. so many years ago the feeling seems like a dream.
will i feel that way again? here? with this person?
is fear holding me back or is it my heart trying to tell me something?
i can hear it rumbling advise to me...
but i don't want to open my ears to it just yet.
